We are three days into Summer vacation and I realize it is going to be a very loooong Summer for Xavier.
For years, When other parents couldn't wait for a break in school so they wouldn't have to rise at the crack of dawn each day, I would dread any type of break from school basically because Xavier would be miserable and in the process make us all miserable as well.
This not only made me dread Summer vacation but also Spring Break, Thanksgiving and Christmas Break!!!
Change is hard for anyone, but for a child with Autism it is nearly unbearable.
In previous years Xavier will ask for school each day of the week aaaallll daaaaay....
Even when I would try to explain to him that it was "break" he would not understand and still whine all day long.
Usually by the time I got him adjusted to "no school today" it was time to go back to school and he would get upset once there and having to deal with " another change" again ...
It was and still is to some extent a bad cycle for him.
After we moved to Georgia and I could not work due to lack of childcare, Most times when he and Jordan were younger and I would spend the Summers " keeping them busy" on the cheap.. Blow up pools or when we moved into a HOA community I would plan on taking them to the pool when it was not so crowded and noisy around sundown and allow he and Jordan swim time each day. Many times Jordan would also go with friends and then again with Xavier and I.
Since Xavier would still awaken at his normal " school time" I had to keep him on a schedule as I realized that even if the schedule was different, just "knowing" what was next or that there would be something to do kept him calmer to some extent.
I found that if I set a routine of "keeping Xavier busy" to wear him out, I could have some peace during the day. That's when I realized I was being "worn out" too!
As I started working more, this time " to wear him out " became more limited.
There is only one Summer Camp for Children with Autism in my area and it is 300.00 per week.
So since it was way cheaper, I would send Jordan to camps at least three weeks out of the Summer and that way I would only have Xavier to run ragged each day.The days they were both at home, I can have Jordan to at least distract Xavier some. One good thing about Georgia is that the heat will wear you down very quickly, so a 30 minute walk with Lucky in the park and then some play time would usually have them both tired for at least two hours. Lucky even longer! :-)
I have to say as he has gotten older and "lived through" more school breaks he has gotten somewhat better at " making entertainment for himself" . His transitions back to school after breaks have gotten better as well.
But still, on days like today when I hear the sound of him constantly saying.." School tomorrow" lets me know he hasn't quite figured out that Summer Break is here but he does know he is bored.
Lucky for him, I have a large packet of Summer Speech lessons his Speech Therapist sent home with him and many worksheets from previous Summers for him to complete.
For some reason having " school work "to do during the Summer months helps keep Xavier calm.
For Jordan the TOTAL opposite is true, he does his assigned Summer reading with MUCH prodding and doesn't want to SEE anything related to school during his break. He would rather veg out on TV and movies all Summer and I think this Summer I will allow him that time. I wont be making him read an extra book off his reading list this time..
Hey, whatever works!
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Friday, May 24, 2013
No more Elementary school... whats next?
The last day of school has come and Summer has begun.
But more so what has been on my mind is that Xavier has had his last day of Elementary school.
This school year has presented more challenges for him and I than I had ever dreamed.
More so, it has caused me to drastically rethink my dreams for Xavier and rethink what I want his life to " look like" in the future.
Truth is .........He is growing up!
He is no longer looking like the "little boy" with Autism I started this journey with, but more so like the "MAN" with Autism he is set to become and that is VERY scary for me.
This year he was adamant about having his birthday cake even though I was under the weather on the Sunday I told him we were to cook for him.
I had sent in treat bags and Confetti Rice Krispy treats to school on his actual birthday in hopes that would satisfy him but on Sunday after church, he kept " telling me " BIRTHDAY CAKE" until he got his Traditional Trent household, birthday dinner and cake.. He put his hands over his ears as usual as Mark, Jordan and I sang to him and blew out his candles.. Then he sat with a satisfied look on his face while he ate his GFCF cake and Ice cream..
I am sure all parents who have special needs children get to a point where they realize that what they had hoped for their child and what the reality is for them is very far apart.
I was watching a show on the Oprah Network and a statement was made that Struck me:
" You cant love someone and not be TRUTHFUL to them"
So I know I must be Truthful to myself and others including Xavier because I love him.
So truth is I have had that realization this school year in more ways than one that what I want for Xavier and what he is capable of at this point are Miles APART...and I admit it has been heartbreaking, but know I must press on towards the new goals set.
For one, Xavier is still having behavior issues. His new school placement for the past five months didn't stop these and we are not sure if it didn't make it worse...
His last IEP meeting took two days to complete and we have decided to send him to a school for children with behavior issues to a program that focus on only children with Autism, rather than a regular Middle School with Special needs placement.
He can stay there until he gets out of High School if needed.
Yeah I know, " NO more Least Restrictive Environment" for him...
No, its not what I had in mind for Xavier 5 years ago when I thought of what he would be doing and where his school setting would be like at this age, but I am a realist and I realize he needs it.
His old IEP has been kicked to the trashcan and now his new one will focus more on Functional skills rather than the academic goals he has always had before....
I no longer care if he can add 2 digits and regroup. I want him to be able to use a calculator to add up his money and know what to pay a cashier for groceries and pay for a meal at a restaurant.
We will no longer focus on him learning site words and reading a book, but rather that he recognize and read signs in the community and follow a crosswalk signs as not to get hit by a car while crossing the street.
This new school also has a Functional Skills room complete with kitchen and bedroom so he can learn to cook a simple meal and make his own bed, fold his own clothes and clean his own house.
Now that he is a preteen I have started focusing in on giving him chores at home. For one he has started to feed the dog each day and Jordan takes him out afterwards. Previously, this was Jordan's chore alone.
So far Xavier has taken to the task and although he has to be reminded to complete it each morning, when asked he goes at it.
He has even refilled the food bin on his own when he knows it has gotten empty. But hasn't been able to say or tell us when Lucky needs more food... LOL !
So now that Xavier is 12 years old, my focus has become on what he will look like when those numbers are reversed and he is 21 years old.
At his last IEP meeting, during my " Parent Statement" time, I mentioned this change in Direction for Xavier and how we see his future now..
Now that we have taught him to feed the dog at home and since now I know he will not attend college, I look at learning to feed the dog differently as maybe he can learn to feed the animals at the Zoo instead...
But then the looming issue in the new plan IS BEHAVIOR.. and lack of Language..
Truth is ......
He wont be able to get a job at the zoo if he is still having meltdowns, or doesn't have the language to tell his boss he isn't feeling well on a particular day and needs to go home..
The New School placement is mainly "Behavior Based" and hopefully will help with his "Main Issue" of behavior and his Speech and Language time as been doubled as well.
When Jordan became a Pre-teen, I was worried more so about "Girls" than how he will care for himself on a day to day basis. Jordan has his own challenges but nothing as deep as the ones Xavier will face.
I must say this new way of looking at the rest of our lives, planning a retirement for three and focusing on getting Xavier the Functional Skills he will need as an adult with Autism seems a daunting task right now.. and one I am sure will change the direction of our Autism Odyssey forever and for the better I pray....
Now if only I can start this Summer by getting him to not ask for "computer please" every five minutes! LOL !
Guess we will start by practicing our "Telling time" skill and telling him he gets computer at a certain time each day...?
I will let yall know how that one goes .. ..;-)
But more so what has been on my mind is that Xavier has had his last day of Elementary school.
This school year has presented more challenges for him and I than I had ever dreamed.
More so, it has caused me to drastically rethink my dreams for Xavier and rethink what I want his life to " look like" in the future.
Truth is .........He is growing up!
He is no longer looking like the "little boy" with Autism I started this journey with, but more so like the "MAN" with Autism he is set to become and that is VERY scary for me.
This year he was adamant about having his birthday cake even though I was under the weather on the Sunday I told him we were to cook for him.
I had sent in treat bags and Confetti Rice Krispy treats to school on his actual birthday in hopes that would satisfy him but on Sunday after church, he kept " telling me " BIRTHDAY CAKE" until he got his Traditional Trent household, birthday dinner and cake.. He put his hands over his ears as usual as Mark, Jordan and I sang to him and blew out his candles.. Then he sat with a satisfied look on his face while he ate his GFCF cake and Ice cream..
I am sure all parents who have special needs children get to a point where they realize that what they had hoped for their child and what the reality is for them is very far apart.
I was watching a show on the Oprah Network and a statement was made that Struck me:
" You cant love someone and not be TRUTHFUL to them"
So I know I must be Truthful to myself and others including Xavier because I love him.
So truth is I have had that realization this school year in more ways than one that what I want for Xavier and what he is capable of at this point are Miles APART...and I admit it has been heartbreaking, but know I must press on towards the new goals set.
For one, Xavier is still having behavior issues. His new school placement for the past five months didn't stop these and we are not sure if it didn't make it worse...
His last IEP meeting took two days to complete and we have decided to send him to a school for children with behavior issues to a program that focus on only children with Autism, rather than a regular Middle School with Special needs placement.
He can stay there until he gets out of High School if needed.
Yeah I know, " NO more Least Restrictive Environment" for him...
No, its not what I had in mind for Xavier 5 years ago when I thought of what he would be doing and where his school setting would be like at this age, but I am a realist and I realize he needs it.
His old IEP has been kicked to the trashcan and now his new one will focus more on Functional skills rather than the academic goals he has always had before....
I no longer care if he can add 2 digits and regroup. I want him to be able to use a calculator to add up his money and know what to pay a cashier for groceries and pay for a meal at a restaurant.
We will no longer focus on him learning site words and reading a book, but rather that he recognize and read signs in the community and follow a crosswalk signs as not to get hit by a car while crossing the street.
This new school also has a Functional Skills room complete with kitchen and bedroom so he can learn to cook a simple meal and make his own bed, fold his own clothes and clean his own house.
Now that he is a preteen I have started focusing in on giving him chores at home. For one he has started to feed the dog each day and Jordan takes him out afterwards. Previously, this was Jordan's chore alone.
So far Xavier has taken to the task and although he has to be reminded to complete it each morning, when asked he goes at it.
He has even refilled the food bin on his own when he knows it has gotten empty. But hasn't been able to say or tell us when Lucky needs more food... LOL !
So now that Xavier is 12 years old, my focus has become on what he will look like when those numbers are reversed and he is 21 years old.
At his last IEP meeting, during my " Parent Statement" time, I mentioned this change in Direction for Xavier and how we see his future now..
Now that we have taught him to feed the dog at home and since now I know he will not attend college, I look at learning to feed the dog differently as maybe he can learn to feed the animals at the Zoo instead...
But then the looming issue in the new plan IS BEHAVIOR.. and lack of Language..
Truth is ......
He wont be able to get a job at the zoo if he is still having meltdowns, or doesn't have the language to tell his boss he isn't feeling well on a particular day and needs to go home..
The New School placement is mainly "Behavior Based" and hopefully will help with his "Main Issue" of behavior and his Speech and Language time as been doubled as well.
When Jordan became a Pre-teen, I was worried more so about "Girls" than how he will care for himself on a day to day basis. Jordan has his own challenges but nothing as deep as the ones Xavier will face.
I must say this new way of looking at the rest of our lives, planning a retirement for three and focusing on getting Xavier the Functional Skills he will need as an adult with Autism seems a daunting task right now.. and one I am sure will change the direction of our Autism Odyssey forever and for the better I pray....
Now if only I can start this Summer by getting him to not ask for "computer please" every five minutes! LOL !
Guess we will start by practicing our "Telling time" skill and telling him he gets computer at a certain time each day...?
I will let yall know how that one goes .. ..;-)
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
When Autism Hurts
I haven't had time to blog in a looong time.
I have been so busy with life that sitting down to the computer seemed like such a daunting task, rather than an enjoyment as it was before.
But today in honor of Xavier and National Autism month, I feel compelled to do so..
For one, my mother came to live in GA in October and I have been so busy setting up her drs, finding a good Care Home for her and just staying on top of her care while juggling the million things I already do with Xavier.
But I am glad to say that despite many setbacks, she is finally settled and feeling and looking good and I am happy and grateful to God for that
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The month of April is National Autism Month. I subscribe to a website that uses this month as a month of prayer for those directly or indirectly affected by autism. It is called prayer@childrenofdestiny.org
Being that I am a Christian, I believe that with all the things I can do for Xavier as his mother, the most powerful, effective thing I can do for him is to pray for him.
There has been many times on my Autism Odyssey that I have found myself helpless and unable to help him in my human physical frailties.
But I can always approach the throne of God on his behalf and God has never let me down when I do.
But in my shortcomings I find I do exhaust myself until I am really on my knees physically before I do.. You know how we are. We think we can handle it on our own and then God reminds us we were never really "handling it" in the first place.
I have been asking everyone on my Facebook page to pray with me for the next 30 days with prayers sent each day by prayer@childrenofdestiny.org.
I will also be asking everyone to participate in the Day of Fasting and Prayer this website holds each year during the month of April.
Ironically for the past two years that day of fasting and prayer fell on Xavier's birthday, April 23rd.
I hope it falls on that day again this year because I am looking for the Lord to move in a huge way for him this year.
You see for the past two years we have been working on getting Xavier to stop having tantrums or Autistic meltdowns is what the term is normally referred to.
It is when someone with Autism is overwhelmed by their surroundings, or fixated on a task or upset by a change in routine that they just loose it.
Many people have posted so much about this on youtube and autism sites and I have found that many Autistic adults suffer from this as well.
It has been my goal to rid Xavier of this before he becomes to big for me to handle when this happens.
Here are some links on Youtube for you to see how this looks:
http://www.examiner.com/article/autism-meltdowns-versus-temper-tantrums
Here is a youtube clip a mom shared on YOUTUBE of her son who has these daily
http://youtu.be/3yTvaqw9M8g
Another older child having a melt
http://youtu.be/s2lEyno1vwo
Thankfully with a good teaching staff, expensive home visits for 10 weeks in a row by the Marcus Institute here in Ga and a very good County school behavior specialist and of course PRAYERS, Xavier had gotten to the point where he would only do this on occasion, usually in a new situation or when he really wanted something he could not have.
At school he had gone from having these many times at day to on average twice a month and he had to be REALLY angry to do so.
So at the end of the Semester before Christmas, we met with the school and with his IEP team decided to pull him out of regular school and send a school with all children with Special needs to try and rid him completely of this behavior as he was having to have a huge male parapro (we called him Mr T) with him at all times in school in case he did have a meltdown.
Since they werent happening everyday, it really was not effective and plus who wants to have their child need a 200 lbs or bigger caretaker.
I know, I know, Education in the Least Restrictive Environment.
But I knew it would only be temporary as he had come so far and why not try this seclusive environment before he goes to Middle school next year and give him a chance to learn to "Calm Himself" verses having to be physically restrained. Even if it wasnt often.
Well I am sad to say it is not going as well as to be expected. He is starting to regress and the new school isnt in a hurry to go back on the path we have chosen.
After what I thought was a very productive IEP meeting last Wednesday...
Xavier came home yesterday looking like this...
Yeah, I know.. Call DHS , Catch a case, WTW!
But I have been here before and know what to do.
Put on the armor of God and pray, but call upon Jesus the LION and not the Lamb and FIGHT!
So many emails have been sent today.
Its time for a change yall. QUICKLY.
I was at work when he came home like this. I got an email from his teacher beforehand explaining that when Xavier went to press him mouth against his arm as he does when he is upset, the teacher yanked it away and "clipped' Xavier's face..
Needless to say it was hard not to cry when I saw this picture at my desk last night. Hard to concentrate but God helped me make it through. When I got home he was sleeping, but I just had to go in and take a "peep" at him and of course kiss his face before I showered and went to bed. I tell myself it could be worse.
Xavier has been in school before where he was really being treated badly. When he was in kindergarten. The teacher and staff would put him in a room when he had a meltdown to scream and kick a file cabinet and Jordan who was attending the same school at the time would often come home and tell me he thought he heard Xavier screaming in his classroom down the hall.
Jordan's grades began to fall and his teacher said he was having frequent urination, but when I investigated and questioned Jordan further I found he was asking to go to the restroom trying to "find" his brother when he heard his screams. This was when they were in Kindergarten and First grade. Thankfully a para-pro called me one evening and told me what was going on. To this day I THANK GOD for her courage and willingness to stand up for what was right. By doing so she went from being "parapro" of the year to having to quit her job. But today she is still a good friend and most of all Carletta Cheeseboro, is one of my heroes.. We Love you CHEESEBURGER!
Thank God Mark got transferred with his job and we moved to GA that year. It was a hard transition for Xavier, but better than where we were.
So back then and still today , since Xavier does not have the language to tell me what actually happened, I have had to learn to lean on "Godly discernment" and learned to have a "connection " with him to know when he does not want to be in a situation. I know when Xavier is being abused and when he is not.
When the things were happening in Kindergarten when it was time for school he would just say the word "afraid". It would break my heart to drop he and Jordan off at school each day with him looking at me and me trying to "make a happy" face and tell him he would be ok. Only to drive home in tears asking the Lord to protect my baby because I knew I could not.
So when Xavier got home on yesterday, We know to try and make the Afternoon as "Normal" as possible. I wasnt at home with him yesterday, but His WONDERFUL father and brother, took over for me with ease..
He had his normal computer time:
Then Daddy applied raw potato and ice compress as much as Xavier would allow and dinner and bath. Once the swelling went down some we could see the bruise underneath
This morning when he awakened, Here is what his face looks like today before school
To decide whether to send him to school today, I try to make sure, that he is ok with going to school. I ask him whats next or say "School today" and watch his reactions. I watch to see if he is getting upset, does he say "no" when I say school?
Most of all I try to keep a calm demeanor and not let him see I am upset as not to make him afraid or upset.
So this morning, I made sure things were "normal"
I even got a smile out of him at breakfast
He watched his favorite cartoon before the school bus came as usual and I watched to be sure he was not getting anxious beforehand ( another sign he doesnt want to go)
And in true Xavier style, he went to school with a happy heart and the true spirit of a champion
So what am I to do.
I have no choice, I must stand up for him. I am "inspired" by him.
He woke up today with a happy heart, ready to try again, SO I MUST DO SO AS WELL.
When he wakes each morning, I go into his room and I say Good morning Xavier and he says "Good morning Mommy" and then we are quiet for a few minutes and can hear the birds singing outside his window.. " Then he will say " " I see a bird" and I say no " You hear a bird" and then he will smile.
And even today his routine did not change.
He can still hear a song, no matter the physical state he is in.
I can and I do learn a lot from him.
When I want to complain about how hard it is , or want to give up, he is a TRUE reminder to wait on the Lord and he will renew my strength,
I will mount up and fly as an eagle and like Xavier.. I WILL SEE AND HEAR A BIRD. I will hear the sweet sounds of God in the midst of my storm.
Isaiah 40:31
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
So when you pray this month, pray not only for Xavier, but for everyone that is affected, works with, cares for and knows someone dealing with Autism.
We all need prayer, but those of us living this each day need just a few more.
Now its time for me to wipe my tears and get to work. Xavier needs me and plus Jordan has left his lunchpail at home again...;-)
Love Yall
Talk to you soon.
I have been so busy with life that sitting down to the computer seemed like such a daunting task, rather than an enjoyment as it was before.
But today in honor of Xavier and National Autism month, I feel compelled to do so..
For one, my mother came to live in GA in October and I have been so busy setting up her drs, finding a good Care Home for her and just staying on top of her care while juggling the million things I already do with Xavier.
But I am glad to say that despite many setbacks, she is finally settled and feeling and looking good and I am happy and grateful to God for that
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Being that I am a Christian, I believe that with all the things I can do for Xavier as his mother, the most powerful, effective thing I can do for him is to pray for him.
There has been many times on my Autism Odyssey that I have found myself helpless and unable to help him in my human physical frailties.
But I can always approach the throne of God on his behalf and God has never let me down when I do.
But in my shortcomings I find I do exhaust myself until I am really on my knees physically before I do.. You know how we are. We think we can handle it on our own and then God reminds us we were never really "handling it" in the first place.
I have been asking everyone on my Facebook page to pray with me for the next 30 days with prayers sent each day by prayer@childrenofdestiny.org.
I will also be asking everyone to participate in the Day of Fasting and Prayer this website holds each year during the month of April.
Ironically for the past two years that day of fasting and prayer fell on Xavier's birthday, April 23rd.
I hope it falls on that day again this year because I am looking for the Lord to move in a huge way for him this year.
You see for the past two years we have been working on getting Xavier to stop having tantrums or Autistic meltdowns is what the term is normally referred to.
It is when someone with Autism is overwhelmed by their surroundings, or fixated on a task or upset by a change in routine that they just loose it.
Many people have posted so much about this on youtube and autism sites and I have found that many Autistic adults suffer from this as well.
It has been my goal to rid Xavier of this before he becomes to big for me to handle when this happens.
Here are some links on Youtube for you to see how this looks:
http://www.examiner.com/article/autism-meltdowns-versus-temper-tantrums
Here is a youtube clip a mom shared on YOUTUBE of her son who has these daily
http://youtu.be/3yTvaqw9M8g
Another older child having a melt
http://youtu.be/s2lEyno1vwo
Thankfully with a good teaching staff, expensive home visits for 10 weeks in a row by the Marcus Institute here in Ga and a very good County school behavior specialist and of course PRAYERS, Xavier had gotten to the point where he would only do this on occasion, usually in a new situation or when he really wanted something he could not have.
At school he had gone from having these many times at day to on average twice a month and he had to be REALLY angry to do so.
So at the end of the Semester before Christmas, we met with the school and with his IEP team decided to pull him out of regular school and send a school with all children with Special needs to try and rid him completely of this behavior as he was having to have a huge male parapro (we called him Mr T) with him at all times in school in case he did have a meltdown.
Since they werent happening everyday, it really was not effective and plus who wants to have their child need a 200 lbs or bigger caretaker.
I know, I know, Education in the Least Restrictive Environment.
But I knew it would only be temporary as he had come so far and why not try this seclusive environment before he goes to Middle school next year and give him a chance to learn to "Calm Himself" verses having to be physically restrained. Even if it wasnt often.
Well I am sad to say it is not going as well as to be expected. He is starting to regress and the new school isnt in a hurry to go back on the path we have chosen.
After what I thought was a very productive IEP meeting last Wednesday...
Xavier came home yesterday looking like this...
Yeah, I know.. Call DHS , Catch a case, WTW!
But I have been here before and know what to do.
Put on the armor of God and pray, but call upon Jesus the LION and not the Lamb and FIGHT!
So many emails have been sent today.
Its time for a change yall. QUICKLY.
I was at work when he came home like this. I got an email from his teacher beforehand explaining that when Xavier went to press him mouth against his arm as he does when he is upset, the teacher yanked it away and "clipped' Xavier's face..
Needless to say it was hard not to cry when I saw this picture at my desk last night. Hard to concentrate but God helped me make it through. When I got home he was sleeping, but I just had to go in and take a "peep" at him and of course kiss his face before I showered and went to bed. I tell myself it could be worse.
Xavier has been in school before where he was really being treated badly. When he was in kindergarten. The teacher and staff would put him in a room when he had a meltdown to scream and kick a file cabinet and Jordan who was attending the same school at the time would often come home and tell me he thought he heard Xavier screaming in his classroom down the hall.
Jordan's grades began to fall and his teacher said he was having frequent urination, but when I investigated and questioned Jordan further I found he was asking to go to the restroom trying to "find" his brother when he heard his screams. This was when they were in Kindergarten and First grade. Thankfully a para-pro called me one evening and told me what was going on. To this day I THANK GOD for her courage and willingness to stand up for what was right. By doing so she went from being "parapro" of the year to having to quit her job. But today she is still a good friend and most of all Carletta Cheeseboro, is one of my heroes.. We Love you CHEESEBURGER!
Thank God Mark got transferred with his job and we moved to GA that year. It was a hard transition for Xavier, but better than where we were.
So back then and still today , since Xavier does not have the language to tell me what actually happened, I have had to learn to lean on "Godly discernment" and learned to have a "connection " with him to know when he does not want to be in a situation. I know when Xavier is being abused and when he is not.
When the things were happening in Kindergarten when it was time for school he would just say the word "afraid". It would break my heart to drop he and Jordan off at school each day with him looking at me and me trying to "make a happy" face and tell him he would be ok. Only to drive home in tears asking the Lord to protect my baby because I knew I could not.
So when Xavier got home on yesterday, We know to try and make the Afternoon as "Normal" as possible. I wasnt at home with him yesterday, but His WONDERFUL father and brother, took over for me with ease..
He had his normal computer time:
Most of all I try to keep a calm demeanor and not let him see I am upset as not to make him afraid or upset.
So this morning, I made sure things were "normal"
I even got a smile out of him at breakfast
And in true Xavier style, he went to school with a happy heart and the true spirit of a champion
I have no choice, I must stand up for him. I am "inspired" by him.
He woke up today with a happy heart, ready to try again, SO I MUST DO SO AS WELL.
When he wakes each morning, I go into his room and I say Good morning Xavier and he says "Good morning Mommy" and then we are quiet for a few minutes and can hear the birds singing outside his window.. " Then he will say " " I see a bird" and I say no " You hear a bird" and then he will smile.
And even today his routine did not change.
He can still hear a song, no matter the physical state he is in.
I can and I do learn a lot from him.
When I want to complain about how hard it is , or want to give up, he is a TRUE reminder to wait on the Lord and he will renew my strength,
I will mount up and fly as an eagle and like Xavier.. I WILL SEE AND HEAR A BIRD. I will hear the sweet sounds of God in the midst of my storm.
Isaiah 40:31
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
So when you pray this month, pray not only for Xavier, but for everyone that is affected, works with, cares for and knows someone dealing with Autism.
We all need prayer, but those of us living this each day need just a few more.
Now its time for me to wipe my tears and get to work. Xavier needs me and plus Jordan has left his lunchpail at home again...;-)
Love Yall
Talk to you soon.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Finally able to BLOG again!
I am so happy to finally be able to blog again today!!! It is cold and I have a head cold, so since my plans for a good walk/jog have been scratched for now, I figured the time I was going to use for that I would put out a new blog post..;-)
So excited that I cant think of a topic so I will go back a month or so and honor my oldest Jordan who turned 13 on November 9th and became an official teenager.
So I will talk about siblings:
I guess I will always feel guilty about not having more children. I sometimes feel Jordan has gotten the short end of the stick when it comes to siblings, since Xavier has special needs.
I would have loved, loved to have had more kids, if there was a way they could come to me without me being pregnant!
Sorry ladies, I HATE being pregnant, aint NOTHING fun about it.
I love kids, but I sure wish I could just lay an egg to get them.. LOL !
Really, Jordan was going to be an only child. I was thinking I would get him socialized early with other children so he wouldn't have the "only child syndrome" ( which I don't buy into anyway) and then Mark and I would get a dog.
But I guess God didn't agree with me.
Since Jordan and Xavier are so close in age, early on, Jordan didn't notice the deficits Xavier had. Many times I would ask him when they were toddlers if Xavier "talked" to him and he would say "yes" and give me a look as if I was crazy..
But looking back if you are 3 years old and your brother is 19 months old, neither of you are "really" talking much, so for the most part I guess as long as Xavier was following along with what Jordan was doing he "felt " as though they " talked "to each other.
The first time I realized Jordan knew something was wrong with Xavier was one day when he was screaming for me to come look!
There they were in the hallway and Xavier had walked up and Hugged Jordan.
Jordan screamed " He loves me!!!" and my heart broke for him and yet I felt hope for them and their relationship as brothers.
I explained to Jordan that Xavier does love him, but we will have to teach him how to hug, kiss us etc and show it to us because he has special needs.. From that first hug, they have been hugging each other ever since and I thank God for that.
I cant think of how many times I have said "special needs" to Jordan. But for the most part he treats Xavier like he would if he were a neurotypical brother. He wrestles him, aggravates him and I do believe he has beaten Xavier up before because Xavier NEVER challenges Jordan when he tells him to do something.. LOL!
I figure he has asserted that he is the BIG brother somehow, I just may never know what he did....
But hey, Xavier is the baby brother he gotta take lumps, Autism or not... LOL!
As the boys have gotten older, the difference in their abilities became more apparent to Jordan.
Many times because we didn't have childcare for Xavier or lots of family support, if we wanted to go to an activity or even eat out because there was so much Xavier could not eat, we had to pass as family.
One day when we wanted to get some ice cream and Mark and I decided to pass because Xavier cant have milk, Jordan made a comment that hit me like a hammer! He said "One for all and all for one , so since Xavier cant have it we wont go"...The way he said it was like he REALLY wanted to go..
So I told him from that day on, if HE could go either I or Daddy would take him.
So Mark and I agreed that Jordan needed some " JUST JORDAN " times.
Jordan started activities that only focused on him, his baseball, basketball, special things at school.
Even if one of us had to stay home with Xavier so Jordan could have the focus "only on him" and not Xavier's behavior issues or food needs, etc, we wanted to be sure he knew his mom and dad had time " just for him".
I think that has helped Jordan not resent Xavier. He is more than willing to help with him, but I am very careful not to make Xavier a " burden" to him and make him more of a companion as well.
Boys at Xavier's Bday Dinner
Boys at Spring Break trip to Chattanooga Aquarium..
When Xavier needs help, Jordan will step up and help him, but if I see him getting frustrated I step in. Here is Jordan giving Xavier some big brother encouragement on the first day of school this year.
Even though Xavier does not have much language he understands most of what is said to him and I also thank God for that!
In the future I am hoping to have put in enough work on Xavier so that he can live alone or in a group type situation.
I want Xavier to be as independent as possible. Not just for his own quality of life, but so that Jordan wont feel so burdened down with him.
Yet, I know if he needs help Jordan will be there to help him.
One day last year as I was cooking, Jordan was talking to me about Xavier and I was shocked that he had already made it up in his mind what he will do with Xavier when they are adults.
Jordan wants to be an Architect and he said he will build a wing onto his home for Xavier or make a Guesthouse for him.
He said because of genetics he wont marry a lady who has autism in her family, but thinks it would be great to marry a Special Ed teacher because they will accept and understand Xavier more.
I was so shocked that all this came from an 12 year old..
That he had thought to include Xavier in his life as an adult and that he had made so many decisions for his life based on how his actions would affect Xavier.......But I am thanking GOD that he did..
So excited that I cant think of a topic so I will go back a month or so and honor my oldest Jordan who turned 13 on November 9th and became an official teenager.
So I will talk about siblings:
I guess I will always feel guilty about not having more children. I sometimes feel Jordan has gotten the short end of the stick when it comes to siblings, since Xavier has special needs.
I would have loved, loved to have had more kids, if there was a way they could come to me without me being pregnant!
Sorry ladies, I HATE being pregnant, aint NOTHING fun about it.
I love kids, but I sure wish I could just lay an egg to get them.. LOL !
Really, Jordan was going to be an only child. I was thinking I would get him socialized early with other children so he wouldn't have the "only child syndrome" ( which I don't buy into anyway) and then Mark and I would get a dog.
But I guess God didn't agree with me.
Since Jordan and Xavier are so close in age, early on, Jordan didn't notice the deficits Xavier had. Many times I would ask him when they were toddlers if Xavier "talked" to him and he would say "yes" and give me a look as if I was crazy..
But looking back if you are 3 years old and your brother is 19 months old, neither of you are "really" talking much, so for the most part I guess as long as Xavier was following along with what Jordan was doing he "felt " as though they " talked "to each other.
The first time I realized Jordan knew something was wrong with Xavier was one day when he was screaming for me to come look!
There they were in the hallway and Xavier had walked up and Hugged Jordan.
Jordan screamed " He loves me!!!" and my heart broke for him and yet I felt hope for them and their relationship as brothers.
I explained to Jordan that Xavier does love him, but we will have to teach him how to hug, kiss us etc and show it to us because he has special needs.. From that first hug, they have been hugging each other ever since and I thank God for that.
I cant think of how many times I have said "special needs" to Jordan. But for the most part he treats Xavier like he would if he were a neurotypical brother. He wrestles him, aggravates him and I do believe he has beaten Xavier up before because Xavier NEVER challenges Jordan when he tells him to do something.. LOL!
I figure he has asserted that he is the BIG brother somehow, I just may never know what he did....
But hey, Xavier is the baby brother he gotta take lumps, Autism or not... LOL!
Many times because we didn't have childcare for Xavier or lots of family support, if we wanted to go to an activity or even eat out because there was so much Xavier could not eat, we had to pass as family.
One day when we wanted to get some ice cream and Mark and I decided to pass because Xavier cant have milk, Jordan made a comment that hit me like a hammer! He said "One for all and all for one , so since Xavier cant have it we wont go"...The way he said it was like he REALLY wanted to go..
So I told him from that day on, if HE could go either I or Daddy would take him.
So Mark and I agreed that Jordan needed some " JUST JORDAN " times.
Jordan started activities that only focused on him, his baseball, basketball, special things at school.
Even if one of us had to stay home with Xavier so Jordan could have the focus "only on him" and not Xavier's behavior issues or food needs, etc, we wanted to be sure he knew his mom and dad had time " just for him".
I think that has helped Jordan not resent Xavier. He is more than willing to help with him, but I am very careful not to make Xavier a " burden" to him and make him more of a companion as well.
When Xavier needs help, Jordan will step up and help him, but if I see him getting frustrated I step in. Here is Jordan giving Xavier some big brother encouragement on the first day of school this year.
In the future I am hoping to have put in enough work on Xavier so that he can live alone or in a group type situation.
I want Xavier to be as independent as possible. Not just for his own quality of life, but so that Jordan wont feel so burdened down with him.
Yet, I know if he needs help Jordan will be there to help him.
One day last year as I was cooking, Jordan was talking to me about Xavier and I was shocked that he had already made it up in his mind what he will do with Xavier when they are adults.
Jordan wants to be an Architect and he said he will build a wing onto his home for Xavier or make a Guesthouse for him.
He said because of genetics he wont marry a lady who has autism in her family, but thinks it would be great to marry a Special Ed teacher because they will accept and understand Xavier more.
I was so shocked that all this came from an 12 year old..
That he had thought to include Xavier in his life as an adult and that he had made so many decisions for his life based on how his actions would affect Xavier.......But I am thanking GOD that he did..
Autism Insurance Coverage for GA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SNhXZWdL_E
When I saw this I thank God that Xavier had Harwood Center in Memphis and Mrs Lynn Shields at Bartlett Elementary. As well as Leronda Gosset who was Xaviers ABA therapist.
Shelby County Schools had a program where they would reimburse for ABA but it was hard to get..
I would like to know how much this lady paid to have ABA for her daughter.
When I saw this I thank God that Xavier had Harwood Center in Memphis and Mrs Lynn Shields at Bartlett Elementary. As well as Leronda Gosset who was Xaviers ABA therapist.
Shelby County Schools had a program where they would reimburse for ABA but it was hard to get..
I would like to know how much this lady paid to have ABA for her daughter.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
The Next Place I go...
Its been a minute since I last posted. I have been so busy with so many things. I have a few drafts that I have not been able to finish..LOL!
So much has been going on that by the time I get to my computer to blog I am falling asleep.!
I have finally got Xavier's stomach yeast under control, his meds on track and he has been back on track with his behavior for the most part at school.
Hopefully, if it is Gods will I will have my mom with me next month and Xavier has a new Para pro in his classroom that has really helped him.
Its a guy and he is 6ft 5in and 260 pounds!
I am sure Xavier " walks the line" with this guy because he is the SAME size as his Daddy! LOL !
Cant wait to meet him at my next IEP meeting...;-)
Also, the Lord has put it on my heart to open an "in home" after school care and respite for children who have autism and I am now on track to start the training, licensing and other stuff in order to get that in place and up and running..
Looking for a larger home to house this business as well....:-)
But hey, if the Lord leads me to it, he will bring me through it.. so I am excited and hubby is excited as well..
Hope to have a grand opening of ......Trent and Trent, Aftercare and Respite, LPC very soon...;-)
I had to take the time to blog today because I wanted remember my dad today as today marks the one year anniversary of my fathers death.
Normally I would not mention this as I don't want the one moment of death to overshadow the LIFE my father lived, but
I felt compelled to mention it because my father and Xavier's relationship went through a major change once my dad found out Xavier had autism.
Also, many people do not know that when I would get down about Xavier's autism or felt like I was stuck in a rut with him, I could always call my dad and he would tell me how proud he was of Mark and I and how we have handled Xavier and have always worked as a team to help him.
He would always remind me that I am giving my boys what I did not have " a mother and father in the home'' and how just doing that was an achievement in itself.
But, it was not always like that.
Before we knew Xavier had autism, Daddy thought he was just bad and spoiled..
When we came by to visit, he thought that when we told Xavier not to touch something and he did it anyway, it was because he was hard headed and not that he was not understanding " facial expressions or social cues"..
Many times, he would go get his belt and tap Xavier on his rear when he touched something he wasn't supposed to have and would keep the belt with him while we were at his house.
I was always careful to watch Xavier as I did not want him to get a famous " Willie James" ass-whipping.. as I dont think he or Jordan could survive that...
When we found out Xavier had autism, I didn't tell anyone right away, mainly because I didn't know exactly what it was.I was ashamed and I blamed myself.
But when I told my Father he was very upset and worried for me.
But he told me that if anyone could raise a child with special needs , he knew I could and that alone gave me strength.
I don't think Daddy realized at first that although Xavier was not interactive as Jordan was with him, he understood what was going on and was very much in tune with his surroundings and has a very good memory.
I think he found out the hard way when one day he called the house to talk to the boys when they were about 5 and 4 years old and after talking with Jordan he asked to speak to Xavier.
But when Xavier heard his voice on the phone, he yelled " BELT" and ran away...
My dad didn't say it, but I knew he was hurt by it..
From that day forward I saw my Dad's demeanor and relationship with Xavier change.
My father made an effort to always " play and interact "with Xavier as much as he would allow every time he saw him.
He soon found out that unlike most children with Autism was not "Sensory sensitive" but he was "sensory seeking" and loved to be grabbed," roughhoused" and tickled by him.
Many times Xavier would purposely go to my Dad so that he could wrestle and tickle him. and the "belt toting" Grandaddy became Grandaddy Billy, the " tickler...;-)
When my father died, I was concerned for both my sons.
Neither of them had been to a funeral, let alone for someone they had loved and was close to.
I was worried that Xavier would not understand the funeral itself , that the crowds of people and the noise would upset him as well to see others crying and upset and I would have to take him out.
I tried to explain it to him as best I could the days before, but when time came for my fathers wake and funeral, I was still not sure he knew what was going on.
We decided not to ride in the funeral car, in case Xavier melted and I needed to leave with him and both my brothers decided not to do so as well so that I wouldn't stand out as not riding with the rest of family.
It was my job to find a tie for my father to wear and when it came time to take it to the funeral home, we were able to view and sit with my dad a few minutes before we left to go get dressed before the wake started.
As we stood looking at my dad after his tie had been chosen and put on, I asked Xavier who he was he answered " Grandaddy" .
When Mark asked him what was he doing. Xavier replied " sleeping".....
He did well as to be expected at the Wake with people walking in and out, lots of talking and laughter, crying and hugging, but in the end he got overwhelmed and Mark took him out to the car, so I would be able to continue to mingle with family and friends.
The next day Mark and I decided that if he got upset during the funeral Mark would take him out to the car and allow me to remain inside for the service.
Surprisingly, Xavier remained TOTALLY silent during Daddy's entire funeral. I thank God that the few times I felt compelled to cry it was in Thanksgiving as most times Xavier picks up on my mood and I was afraid he would pick up on the fact that I was dying inside and become upset.
But, during the funeral, he never made a sound, not even one of his little " autism" noises.. He was attentive and never took his eyes off the casket that was in front and when I looked at him, the look in his eyes told me HE UNDERSTOOD.
He knew that Daddy was not just "Sleeping" although that is what he had told us the day before and I knew he understood that this was the last time he would see " Grandaddy Billy" as he and Jordan called him.
He continued to remain silent during the car ride to the burial and although Mark and I tried kidding around with the boys to lighten the mood in the car on the way , Xavier's demeanor remained quiet as he watched all the cars line up and drive off..
When the burial ceremony was over and after everyone had left their seats and started to hug, take pics, and walk back to their cars to go to the repast, Mark and I noticed Xavier moved to a front seat in front of Daddy's casket that was already partially lowered and just sat there. Mark offered him a lollipop and we finally saw a smile..
As I walked away and talked to family and friends.. I heard someone yell and realized that Xavier had laid on top of Daddy's casket as if to hug it.. Mark went over and got him and Xavier walked to the car with him. While everyone talked about how this "little bad boy" had climbed on top of the casket or what would possess him to do so.. ......
I smiled inside because I knew That was Xavier's way of saying goodbye and getting one last hug and tickle from Grandaddy..
That he had forgotten "Belt toting" Grandaddy and remembered the one that gave big hugs and rough housed and tickled him on demand .
After we got home, I noticed Xavier started carrying a book I had bought for him months before.
He loves to "visually stim" on items and sometimes when its a book and is cheap, I admit I just buy it to get out of the store in peace.....LOL!
Usually once he gets it home and holds onto it for a few days he just looses interest like most kids do with toys, but for some reason he had started back carrying this one everywhere he went.
I decided to make him play " appropriately" with it and sat to read it to him"
As I did, the tears started to run down my face as I realized my baby was hurt and this book comforted him.
Its called " THE NEXT PLACE ", by Warren Hanson..
I had not realized it when I bought it for him, but it is a beautiful way for a child to understand dying and heaven..
It has beautiful pictures and describes heaven in a way, that makes a child not fear death, but look at it as a place they can look forward to going..
I noticed he had it today in the car on the way to Nana's after church and it made me SMILE..
Today at church, Brother Giddens sermon was entitled " Why God allows us to suffer" .
He spoke about how everything bad that happens to us, God makes it for our good and that Suffering , brings Perseverance and Perseverance, Character and Character brings .......Hope.
So as I hurt for my father today, I can still thank my heavenly father for the time I had with him.
I can thank him for all the GOOD that has come to me from my fathers life and death.
I thank my heavenly father for the faith that has been built in me and today I add that I am thankful that through my fathers death, I was able to experience another dimension of my son. ....
As I sat on the sofa to type this blog post, Xavier sat on the other end, watching TV and his book in front of him on the ottoman...
Maybe I will read it to him again tonight, since it has been a year since we last read it together.
.I am not sure if he knows what today is, but I am glad the Lord sees fit to comfort me in this way..
So much has been going on that by the time I get to my computer to blog I am falling asleep.!
I have finally got Xavier's stomach yeast under control, his meds on track and he has been back on track with his behavior for the most part at school.
Hopefully, if it is Gods will I will have my mom with me next month and Xavier has a new Para pro in his classroom that has really helped him.
Its a guy and he is 6ft 5in and 260 pounds!
I am sure Xavier " walks the line" with this guy because he is the SAME size as his Daddy! LOL !
Cant wait to meet him at my next IEP meeting...;-)
Also, the Lord has put it on my heart to open an "in home" after school care and respite for children who have autism and I am now on track to start the training, licensing and other stuff in order to get that in place and up and running..
Looking for a larger home to house this business as well....:-)
But hey, if the Lord leads me to it, he will bring me through it.. so I am excited and hubby is excited as well..
Hope to have a grand opening of ......Trent and Trent, Aftercare and Respite, LPC very soon...;-)
I had to take the time to blog today because I wanted remember my dad today as today marks the one year anniversary of my fathers death.
Normally I would not mention this as I don't want the one moment of death to overshadow the LIFE my father lived, but
I felt compelled to mention it because my father and Xavier's relationship went through a major change once my dad found out Xavier had autism.
Also, many people do not know that when I would get down about Xavier's autism or felt like I was stuck in a rut with him, I could always call my dad and he would tell me how proud he was of Mark and I and how we have handled Xavier and have always worked as a team to help him.
He would always remind me that I am giving my boys what I did not have " a mother and father in the home'' and how just doing that was an achievement in itself.
But, it was not always like that.
Before we knew Xavier had autism, Daddy thought he was just bad and spoiled..
When we came by to visit, he thought that when we told Xavier not to touch something and he did it anyway, it was because he was hard headed and not that he was not understanding " facial expressions or social cues"..
Many times, he would go get his belt and tap Xavier on his rear when he touched something he wasn't supposed to have and would keep the belt with him while we were at his house.
I was always careful to watch Xavier as I did not want him to get a famous " Willie James" ass-whipping.. as I dont think he or Jordan could survive that...
When we found out Xavier had autism, I didn't tell anyone right away, mainly because I didn't know exactly what it was.I was ashamed and I blamed myself.
But when I told my Father he was very upset and worried for me.
But he told me that if anyone could raise a child with special needs , he knew I could and that alone gave me strength.
I don't think Daddy realized at first that although Xavier was not interactive as Jordan was with him, he understood what was going on and was very much in tune with his surroundings and has a very good memory.
I think he found out the hard way when one day he called the house to talk to the boys when they were about 5 and 4 years old and after talking with Jordan he asked to speak to Xavier.
But when Xavier heard his voice on the phone, he yelled " BELT" and ran away...
My dad didn't say it, but I knew he was hurt by it..
From that day forward I saw my Dad's demeanor and relationship with Xavier change.
My father made an effort to always " play and interact "with Xavier as much as he would allow every time he saw him.
He soon found out that unlike most children with Autism was not "Sensory sensitive" but he was "sensory seeking" and loved to be grabbed," roughhoused" and tickled by him.
Many times Xavier would purposely go to my Dad so that he could wrestle and tickle him. and the "belt toting" Grandaddy became Grandaddy Billy, the " tickler...;-)
When my father died, I was concerned for both my sons.
Neither of them had been to a funeral, let alone for someone they had loved and was close to.
I was worried that Xavier would not understand the funeral itself , that the crowds of people and the noise would upset him as well to see others crying and upset and I would have to take him out.
I tried to explain it to him as best I could the days before, but when time came for my fathers wake and funeral, I was still not sure he knew what was going on.
We decided not to ride in the funeral car, in case Xavier melted and I needed to leave with him and both my brothers decided not to do so as well so that I wouldn't stand out as not riding with the rest of family.
It was my job to find a tie for my father to wear and when it came time to take it to the funeral home, we were able to view and sit with my dad a few minutes before we left to go get dressed before the wake started.
As we stood looking at my dad after his tie had been chosen and put on, I asked Xavier who he was he answered " Grandaddy" .
When Mark asked him what was he doing. Xavier replied " sleeping".....
He did well as to be expected at the Wake with people walking in and out, lots of talking and laughter, crying and hugging, but in the end he got overwhelmed and Mark took him out to the car, so I would be able to continue to mingle with family and friends.
The next day Mark and I decided that if he got upset during the funeral Mark would take him out to the car and allow me to remain inside for the service.
Surprisingly, Xavier remained TOTALLY silent during Daddy's entire funeral. I thank God that the few times I felt compelled to cry it was in Thanksgiving as most times Xavier picks up on my mood and I was afraid he would pick up on the fact that I was dying inside and become upset.
But, during the funeral, he never made a sound, not even one of his little " autism" noises.. He was attentive and never took his eyes off the casket that was in front and when I looked at him, the look in his eyes told me HE UNDERSTOOD.
He continued to remain silent during the car ride to the burial and although Mark and I tried kidding around with the boys to lighten the mood in the car on the way , Xavier's demeanor remained quiet as he watched all the cars line up and drive off..
As I walked away and talked to family and friends.. I heard someone yell and realized that Xavier had laid on top of Daddy's casket as if to hug it.. Mark went over and got him and Xavier walked to the car with him. While everyone talked about how this "little bad boy" had climbed on top of the casket or what would possess him to do so.. ......
I smiled inside because I knew That was Xavier's way of saying goodbye and getting one last hug and tickle from Grandaddy..
That he had forgotten "Belt toting" Grandaddy and remembered the one that gave big hugs and rough housed and tickled him on demand .
He loves to "visually stim" on items and sometimes when its a book and is cheap, I admit I just buy it to get out of the store in peace.....LOL!
Usually once he gets it home and holds onto it for a few days he just looses interest like most kids do with toys, but for some reason he had started back carrying this one everywhere he went.
I decided to make him play " appropriately" with it and sat to read it to him"
As I did, the tears started to run down my face as I realized my baby was hurt and this book comforted him.
Its called " THE NEXT PLACE ", by Warren Hanson..
I had not realized it when I bought it for him, but it is a beautiful way for a child to understand dying and heaven..
It has beautiful pictures and describes heaven in a way, that makes a child not fear death, but look at it as a place they can look forward to going..
I noticed he had it today in the car on the way to Nana's after church and it made me SMILE..
Today at church, Brother Giddens sermon was entitled " Why God allows us to suffer" .
He spoke about how everything bad that happens to us, God makes it for our good and that Suffering , brings Perseverance and Perseverance, Character and Character brings .......Hope.
So as I hurt for my father today, I can still thank my heavenly father for the time I had with him.
I can thank him for all the GOOD that has come to me from my fathers life and death.
I thank my heavenly father for the faith that has been built in me and today I add that I am thankful that through my fathers death, I was able to experience another dimension of my son. ....
As I sat on the sofa to type this blog post, Xavier sat on the other end, watching TV and his book in front of him on the ottoman...
Maybe I will read it to him again tonight, since it has been a year since we last read it together.
.I am not sure if he knows what today is, but I am glad the Lord sees fit to comfort me in this way..
In Loving Memory of
Willie James " Grandaddy Billy" Johnson
April 10, 1945 - October 14, 2011.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
The Smallest Things, Mean Alot
Just like the smallest things like giving Xavier something for yeast can calm him, the smallest things can set him off.
Today is Community Skills at school. It is when the staff takes the class out into the Community to teach them to shop, count money, and try to establish some self help skills they will need later in life if they have the ability to live on their own.
Xavier has not been going on Community Skills this year due to his aggressive behavior, so today he will be staying back at school.
Yeah, I know, they cant do that by law, but considering how extreme he has been acting this year, I am ok with him hanging out at school especially since he gets more than enough Community Skills at home...
I like to shop and yes, most times I drag Xavier along with me.
That boy can unload groceries from a trunk twice as fast as his big brother and is a very good cart driver..;-)
That is when he is not trying to hop on the back and take a ride or slide down the aisle, but what kid/preteen doesn't do that..?
So today, Xavier is all cool, until he realizes that not only will he stay back from Community Skills, but it is also picture day.
So most people that know me, know I love, love taking pics of my boys..
Hey they are my babies and plus I think they are so handsome, but I am biased right?
Also, unlike a lot of children with Autism, Xavier takes pictures pretty well. He did better when he was younger, but I think now that he has gotten older, he is not real sure how to smile and kinda fakes it more, than when he was younger and just tickled..
More so, I used my camera and a mirror early on with Xavier to get him to make "EYE CONTACT" with me.
He loved lights and the flash on the camera always got his attention.
I would also stand him on my bathroom sink and point to the "boy" in the mirror and that would also catch his eye.
Not sure when but later on he started to realize the boy was moving " in sync" with him in the mirror was his own reflection, thus began his now obsession with Mirrors.. ( and most people think he is just vain) as he cant walk past one today without looking at himself! LOL !
So today after he gets dressed, I realize his school picture day is today and not on the 10th as I had thought! YIKES!!
So I am trying to get Xavier to wear something different to school for pictures.. I knew this would be a task because usually I gradually change his clothing for school as the seasons start to change.
We start off in Shorts and T shirts or short sleeve polo's
Then we go to long pants (sweats) and short sleeve polo's and t shirt
or shorts and a long sleeved t-shirt.
Next we go to both long pants (sweats) or jeans and long sleeve shirts.
Then we had a windbreaker or light jacket and then on
to sweats and a real coat ( by then it is November or December )
Yes, I have to be that methodical with it....
THAT'S AUTISM..
Please don't ask what I have to do to get him to wear a new pair of shoes! I literally hide the old ones!! and that is just the beginning..
A few weeks ago when all of sudden it got cooler too soon, I had him put on a pair of jeans instead of his normal shorts and t-shirt and got a call from school an hour later saying that he was standing in the Sensory room in his undies asking for another pair of pants...!!!
Yall remember that? That was the day I took him home...
So here we are , he in his khaki Izod shorts and T shirt and me trying to figure out how I can dress this up a little.... I start bringing down long sleeve T's to see if maybe I can match something to his Camouflage sneakers ..?
I am asking him to try them on and his only response is "NO" ..
So I am bribing him with Gorilla Munch Cereal and he is still not going there.
Finally he agrees to put on a vest he wore for recent Family pics over the t-shirt and at least looks like he is going to play golf..
I am content because he didnt have a major melt down and I think he is just happy I am about to leave him alone.
Lets just hope he remembers to Smile...;-)
Today is Community Skills at school. It is when the staff takes the class out into the Community to teach them to shop, count money, and try to establish some self help skills they will need later in life if they have the ability to live on their own.
Xavier has not been going on Community Skills this year due to his aggressive behavior, so today he will be staying back at school.
Yeah, I know, they cant do that by law, but considering how extreme he has been acting this year, I am ok with him hanging out at school especially since he gets more than enough Community Skills at home...
I like to shop and yes, most times I drag Xavier along with me.
That boy can unload groceries from a trunk twice as fast as his big brother and is a very good cart driver..;-)
That is when he is not trying to hop on the back and take a ride or slide down the aisle, but what kid/preteen doesn't do that..?
So today, Xavier is all cool, until he realizes that not only will he stay back from Community Skills, but it is also picture day.
So most people that know me, know I love, love taking pics of my boys..
Hey they are my babies and plus I think they are so handsome, but I am biased right?
Also, unlike a lot of children with Autism, Xavier takes pictures pretty well. He did better when he was younger, but I think now that he has gotten older, he is not real sure how to smile and kinda fakes it more, than when he was younger and just tickled..
More so, I used my camera and a mirror early on with Xavier to get him to make "EYE CONTACT" with me.
He loved lights and the flash on the camera always got his attention.
I would also stand him on my bathroom sink and point to the "boy" in the mirror and that would also catch his eye.
Not sure when but later on he started to realize the boy was moving " in sync" with him in the mirror was his own reflection, thus began his now obsession with Mirrors.. ( and most people think he is just vain) as he cant walk past one today without looking at himself! LOL !
So today after he gets dressed, I realize his school picture day is today and not on the 10th as I had thought! YIKES!!
So I am trying to get Xavier to wear something different to school for pictures.. I knew this would be a task because usually I gradually change his clothing for school as the seasons start to change.
We start off in Shorts and T shirts or short sleeve polo's
Then we go to long pants (sweats) and short sleeve polo's and t shirt
or shorts and a long sleeved t-shirt.
Next we go to both long pants (sweats) or jeans and long sleeve shirts.
Then we had a windbreaker or light jacket and then on
to sweats and a real coat ( by then it is November or December )
Yes, I have to be that methodical with it....
THAT'S AUTISM..
Please don't ask what I have to do to get him to wear a new pair of shoes! I literally hide the old ones!! and that is just the beginning..
A few weeks ago when all of sudden it got cooler too soon, I had him put on a pair of jeans instead of his normal shorts and t-shirt and got a call from school an hour later saying that he was standing in the Sensory room in his undies asking for another pair of pants...!!!
Yall remember that? That was the day I took him home...
So here we are , he in his khaki Izod shorts and T shirt and me trying to figure out how I can dress this up a little.... I start bringing down long sleeve T's to see if maybe I can match something to his Camouflage sneakers ..?
I am asking him to try them on and his only response is "NO" ..
So I am bribing him with Gorilla Munch Cereal and he is still not going there.
Finally he agrees to put on a vest he wore for recent Family pics over the t-shirt and at least looks like he is going to play golf..
I am content because he didnt have a major melt down and I think he is just happy I am about to leave him alone.
Lets just hope he remembers to Smile...;-)
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